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About time
Time is funny. It’s like each time I look in the mirror, I see a different person. The first time I looked, I saw this girl with fear in her eyes, she had just found out she was pregnant. The next time I looked, I saw the same girl, but she did not seem so Continue reading
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May 10, 2023
I remember my lolo telling me when I was younger that the most painful thing anyone can make us feel is disappointment. This sentence has been sitting in my drafts for almost two years now. I loved being pregnant. Although terrifying, I also loved giving birth. And most of all, I love being a mom. Continue reading
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My 27th Birthday
I remember waking up on my birthday feeling so loved. I moved to the US three years ago. I was born in the Philippines on January 8, 1998. So, when the clock strikes 8:00 in the morning of January 7 PST, it’s already my birthday!!! (Because it’s the 8th in the Philippines.) So, basically, my Continue reading
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Dreamt of an angel
Mark visited me in my dream the other night. I woke up feeling so light and heavy at the same time. That dream was full of symbolism, but I won’t go into the other parts. I feel like I have to share what I saw and felt when Mark was in it. So here goes. Continue reading
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Dear Amelia
This week, it was just us two. It was lovely. We settled into our own little routine quite naturally. I love our every day together. Our home is filled with peace, love, laughter… and chaos here and there. It’s the best. Amelia, you are growing up so fast. Recently, we have been working on you Continue reading
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Come out and play
I’m allowing myself to feel. I will let my logical mind rest, and pet my demons. It’s been a while since I’ve talked to them, let alone shared our conversation with you. It’s been hard these past few months. Ever since I got back from the Philippines, it’s like I’ve been in a roller coaster Continue reading
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My mom
My mom is the epitome of strength. When I was in fifth grade, she moved to the U.S. for work, leaving her whole life in the Philippines. She was 35. In the Philippines, she was a stay-at-home mom. Here, she’s a career woman. Her first job was as a caregiver. She then made her way Continue reading
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Love love
On page seven of the memoir Some People Need Killing, author Patricia Evangelista narrates the death of a couple during Duterte’s war on drugs. It is told from the view of Love love, their 11-year old daughter. The gunmen barged into their home in the middle of the night. Shot the dad, then shot the Continue reading
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Homecoming
On this day, two years ago, my life was completely different. My world crumbled. I had just found out that I was pregnant and was scheduled to get an abortion on the 9th of September that year, 2022. I remember each day leading to that appointment felt like a nightmare. On the day itself, right Continue reading
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Dear Amelia
My sweet love, everyday I fall more and more in love with you. You are so beautiful, brave, smart, kind, silly, and funny. It is 10:31 PM. You are sound asleep beside mama. Where do I begin my love…. You are growing up so fast. I’m trying to savor each day with you. This age. Continue reading
About Me
Hello, I’m Margaux.
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