The Whole 9 Yards

Oh my, where do I begin, my love?

Just the other day when you were giggling away I wrote “Mia’s laugh sounds the same as it was when she was only three months old.”

When we woke up yesterday, you gave Momma the biggest hug. I love it when you wake up in a cuddly mood. You have a complete set of teeth, the fullest pink lips (a combination of mine and your dad’s), and your eyes—gosh, they’re so big, bright, and beautiful.

My little love, you are so beautiful, intelligent, brave, kind, sweet, and funny. You are all the beautiful things.

Lately, our life has been a little hectic. We moved to a new home. A new chapter awaits for us here my darling. And by the looks of it, I think you are loving are new space. A little bigger than our old one, and I promise we will stay a longer.

My love, we’ve been going on more walks, and you’ve been talking much more! You copy words so quickly now. I’m so proud of you. You love to play, read, eat, watch TV, and bath time. You do yoga with momma, and you’re a natural! Your downward facing dog is pristine. But one time you over did it and you fell on your face 😦 It was so cute! And you were extra careful the next few times HAHA.

You love to run around the house, and I love the sound of your little footsteps. You are currently obsessed with the tiny colored dinosaurs I got you. You love to count them and cook them in your play kitchen. You also love to draw.. but only on the walls.

I wish I could press pause.

With your surge in energy, momma sometimes can’t keep up. I’m sorry, Anak, for the times I lost my patience. In the midst of big changes while juggling work, home, and you, momma sometimes gets overwhelmed with everything, especially when you show your big feelings.

Now I know what Ms. Rachel’s been singing about. You shout so loud, and you are much stronger and more physical with the tantrums, and I find myself lost because I do not want to raise my voice at you but sometimes it’s the only voice you react to.

Momma will be better. I hate when I do that, so I will study more. Actually, my love, I began reading my first parenting book. I never read one because I felt like being a mom was something I wanted to do intuitively. I usually read articles online, but I’ve never picked up whole book.

There’s a first for everything. And right now, as you grow, I need my knowledge about toddlers to grow. I want to learn how to effectively communicate with you.

I don’t want you to grow up in a home where voices are raised, so momma will work on it. You just be you, anak, and let momma do the rest. I will make sure to build a peaceful home full of love, laughter, and support.

I know sometimes momma is strict, and, I know you do not like the word “No”. Understand my love that momma will never say “no” unless it’s wrong or bad for you. I would never want to upset my little girl.

Momma always wants the best for you. Momma wants Amelia to always be safe, happy, and to grow up to be a good person….and my love every day you are a good girl. Your beautiful heart shines in the mundane moments and I’m so so proud of you.

Anyway, my love, you are amazing. You are my joy and you are my calm… even if you are also the storm sometimes! Lol. The months are just flying by, and soon, you will turn two. Two years of you already.

Best two years of my life so far.

I love you more than life, my little Mia. Momma will work extra hard to give you the best life.