The Whole 9 Yards

Apparently, they suspended my account for not following Community Guidelines. When I appealed for a review, they decided to disable my account permanently. WHAT THE F?!?!?! I only post about my pregnancy now, and I’ve been keeping it fairly PG on there!!!!!

I hate how much this is affecting me. I am devastated that I lost that specific account because I had that account since high school. It’s basically a documentation of my life. From high school, to college, to graduating, my first job, migrating to the states, getting pregnant, all my big life events, good times, bad times… and now it’s all gone… for no reason at all. As someone who migrated and lives a thousand miles from my family and friends – I’m furious.

I hate how much I shared my life over the years on this one account only for it to be taken away from me so abruptly. I hate instagram. I hate how much I put so much value onto that account, that it affects me so emotionally while my baby is in my tummy. I’m sorry if you’re feeling my sadness Amelia. Mommy will get it together.

As much as I want to deflect the thought of this “happening for a reason”, I can’t help but see the silver lining of this. But tonight I’m just going to sulk, and call bullshit on anyone who tries to comfort me.

Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel better.. but tonight I feel like shit.