The Whole 9 Yards

Are the words of my dad when he first found out I was pregnant. I had my older brother break the news to him, because I was too scared to tell him myself. At that time, my mental health was deteriorating. I would consider those days the darkest times of my life. Yet it was in those days that I found my light.

One of the things I learned about myself was that it was incredibly easy for me to fight for what I love and to stand by my principles. Now, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. How could I not be, when I’m carrying my first child! Pregnancy is hard but it’s beautiful. Just the thought of my daughter growing inside me, brings me so much joy.

Indeed, such is life.

It has been four months from then and now, yet I feel like a completely different person. Things that mattered so much to me before seems almost irrelevant now. My whole perspective changed and my focus shifted. As I discover new things about myself, and prepare for the bigger changes in my life, I would like to keep track of my thoughts, experiences, and feelings throughout the process. Hence, this new blog.

My old blog is my tumblr page that I’ve kept running since the fifth grade. I literally wrote everything on there. I wrote about my first crush, my first love, my first heartbreak, graduating college, moving to the states, and the little things in between. I love how that page holds so much memories, and so many different versions of me from 2009 to 2022.

I believe a whole new me deserves a whole new platform. I’ve always loved to write. I love the art and I love the calmness it brings me. In this blog, I will write about anything under the sun. Good days, bad days, books, movies, songs, life experiences, my world views, relationships, pregnancy, womanhood, fitness, art, dreams, goals, etc. I’ll just figure things out as I go. My intention is to learn, to express, to document, and like my old blog, to have something to look back to ten years from now.

I would also like to help people. If this blog ever reaches someone that relates to me, then great! I would love to connect and learn from you. In that scenario, I would have already given back to the online space that has given me so much comfort in my darkest times. I know how it’s like to feel alone and to find comfort in words of a stranger. Hopefully I’ll be that stranger to someone one day too.